I cannot afford to pay my outstanding utility bill, so here is a picture of a spider which I drew. I value the drawing at £233.23.

When I get home this weekend, the first thing I am going to do is completely and utterly rape Sainsburys. I am going to OBLITERATE it. Sharlene on till 5 will NOT see this coming. I'm really fed up at the moment with having chivied myself into such terrible habits food-wise; either not really eating much of anything because I can't be bothered to drag Mr McGregor's vegetable patch home with me, or snacking on random stuff that I don't really want to eat anyway....so as of tomorrow I'm going to pull myself together and really make a go of this raw vegan thing and try my very very very best to stick to it. No cheating. Some people have already asked me why I'm trying to do it anyway and there isn't really an answer - I'm not on some big moral animal rights crusade, I suppose I just want to see if I can do it and experiment a bit with what it does for your body. Apparently you do go through incredibly horrible detox symptoms whilst the chemicals drain out of your system but after feeling crappy for a little bit you pull through the other side and start to see health benefits, glowing skin etc standard beauty magazine spiel. I did it fairly consistently for about a month not lot ago, with the odd little cheat, which surprisingly I didn't find too hard at all because I've always loved fruit and vegetables and used to pretty much live off bowls of salad last year so perhaps it won't be quite the shock to the system I'm expecting. I'm not naive, I have done ridiculous amounts of research into daily recommended intakes and such and actually it's quite easy to reach your carbohydrate and protein targets provided you include the right things. SO, shopping list for Saturday includes....

cucumber
cherry tomatos
carrots
sweetcorn
red onion
kidney beans
green, red and yellow peppers
pineapple chunks
gala melon
pink lady apples
bananas
cherrys
black grapes
cashew nuts
peanuts
avocados
spinach
seeds & flax
balsamic dressing

And that is literally what I intend to live off for as long as I can. I'm going to be very sly and admit to myself that no amount of will power can stop me drinking tea and coffee, so I'll allow myself that. The actual definition of a raw vegan is someone whose diet consists of 80% or more raw food (dehydrated food is fine, eg. dried fruit) so in all fairness the coffee won't be breaking any rules. I'm also going to have to be realistic and admit that it IS summer time, people are going to be having BBQ's and parties every week not to mention the fact that my graduation is coming up and there is no way in hell I'm passing down champagne at my own graduation...basically I might try and reduce my alcohol slowly, perhaps start by trying to drink one night a week and stick to wine rather than whiskey and coke. Definitely no cocktails pour moi as I don't want it messing with my blood sugar levels whilst I'm doing this.

Sorry lovelies I know this is one long boring ramble, and about vegetables too, but the entire point of this blog is to pretty much jot down little ponderings and decisions so here we are. I do adore the idea of successfully transitioning to raw vegan because fruit and vegetables always make me feel so "clean" inside if that makes sense so it's all very exciting I just really hope I can see it through until the end. I'll try and keep a sort of food diary on here and see how things progress. Bisous x