Now you've got a brighter smile and I think I'm going to like it

Things I need to make my life complete, until tomorrow, when I will want more :







The shoes I'm definitely going to go for, although probably in black because I rarely wear my grey tights and you can only wear grey tights with brown shoes. I'm justifying this on the basis that I can then use ALL my other pretty ballet flats for work and wear these at the weekend. They're made out of really beautiful sturdy italian leather and will go with jeans too. RIP lovely ballet flats, it makes the most sense.

I also want/geuinely need -

A scarf for work, something pretty but unfortunately bland.
Camden Crawl and Isle of Wight tickets (and the ability to convince dad to let us stay on the boat)
A new pair of pat butcher earrings
A harness for Benni so he can no longer attempt suicide-via-lesh

Drinks in Ascot tonight and Kingston all day tomorrow. More drinks with lovely girls on Tuesday. Finally caught up with my sister last night as well so we'll probably do something long overdue this week. I really despise not having a set starting date for work yet, the more I have to wait the more unappealing employment becomes. Looks like I'll be free for a few more days though so fully intend to make the most of them.

Favourtie song at the moment is Broken Heart by French Horn Rebellion.

Also

Why are people only just getting the Maccabees?

I hate that "All the right moves" is by the same band who did "Apologize"

Went up to Portobello today via Kew. It is now my mission to convincve my parents to move there (Kew, not Portobello) and/or find me a nice little period conversion up there. Portobello was cold, not much else made an impression. I always find it's stupidly over-priced in comparison with other areas of London selling the same thing. Bought a sweet earthy-coloured knitted jumper, very "The Good Life", and a bit of a geeky book. One thing I DID find which was spectacular was the most breath-taking baroque chateau-style sofa in pale blue, pink and gold. I would seriously happily buy this sofa and have absolutely nothing else in my living room, or indeed any other room of the house, and just sit there. No TV, no coffee table, no lamps...just sit there in something damsel-esque and writhe enthusiastically around on my new sofa. No one else would be allowed to sit on it. Just me and my chateu-style sofa. It was £4,700.

I'm thinking of trying something different. BEATNIK. I've never really dabbled in beatnik before unless by accident (when having a slobby-i-cant-be-bothered-to-put-together-an-outfit-day). The thing that scares me is it's not the most versatile of looks - one thin black jumper looks the same as another and even wearing a pair of diesel jeans is considered selling out (pondering it, you could probably get away with Levis). Extend your wardrobe to include a pair of Hepburn style chinos and penny loafers and that's about as creative as it gets. Find a patch of grass under a tree and commence smoking moodily whilst not talking to your friends.





She makes me want to cut my hair again.

All my boyfriends love me.

Is this not the most blasphemous, confused, hideous monstrosity that ever came out of the closet.



They're like £122. Really?

Lovely day so far. Got my sequin jumper and two dresses through this morning. Went out for coffee with friends and going to the pub with Kim tonight for chats and larky. Will probably be driving again but never mind. Going to an exhibition in Londom tomorrow which should be very enlightening but I'm hoping to squeeze in a trip to Somerset House and yumcha afterwards, possibly even get up to Nottinghill if I'm not sleepy.

Feeling terrifyingly positive about everything at the moment.

My brother and Dawn came over earlier to show us the baby's first scan. Gorgeous little thing (and I HATE babies), you can already see a little head and hands and feet. Kicking myself because my brother has officially stolen the two baby names I had "reserved" for whichever unlucky little brat has a one in a million chance of having me as a mother. I know perfectly well I probably never will have any children, but if I DID ever have a change of heart I always wanted to call the girl "Bella" and the boy "Arthur" or "Arty" for short. The second I blurted that out my brother immediately decided he loves those names, so apparently if it's a boy he's going to be called "Arthur Edward Charles Adams" (The solidarity and upper middle class testosterone of this name was accentuated by a well-timed knee-punch). I liked Arthur. And Edward. I have no other choice. My future son is doomed to be called "Adam Adams".

Mum says I'm going to have to learn how to knit booties. I'm more keen on knitting the little darling a chic little snood or a Missoni style knitted chain necklace. Please be a girl.

In the mood

to shave all my hair off.

I can say "I hope it will be worth what I give up"

So, "Perfume" is a particularly insane film.

Weekend was immense. Friday was exceptionally delicious, saw three of my favourite girls, another sweetheart on Saturday and other much-missed faces over the weekend. This week is already looking set to be pretty manic so I'm trying to organise my diary. Lots of things to look forward to.

Feeling very calm and happy, despite some weird kind of "jaw-ache". Mother is currently trying to force-feed me petit-filou. Why is it that when you once vaguely mention to your mum that you "quite like" something they then buy multipacks of it and then when it goes uneaten and expires buy even MORE multipacks? I think it's cause she worries about my calcium intake, probably best examplified by her insistance that I "used to drink pints of milk every day". This is true. I was six. It was served in a sippy cup.




I expected that one or two people would be told a story - not very fair, was it?

I was about to unbutton his pants and then realised that he was wearing an elasticated waistband. So, no, that didn't happen.

Exhibition today, drinks at Jagz this evening and managed to get my hair done (finally). Have three cats on my bed and Breaking Dawn to read.

I'm in the mood for resolving issues and clearing the air. All over cliches. I could really do with the drive west on saturday, three hours of scenary and music to clear my mind, not like driving to cardiff, that was traumatic. I still wish you were the person I initially thought you were. I didn't want this to happen.

This weekend is going to be such a huge test of my willpower.